Being-a-loser-that-kind-of-thought

Haih. It's been about more than 10 days i've been back, again at home. But, it seems like, i cudn't even finish my past year papers, ranging from mathsy C4 to tidious D1. That's really torturing me with the fact that I cudnt earn even a single bit of determination to do things in me. Added with my younger sisters' fight over almost every day, making it such a daily routine to watch and hear them fighting. Haven't been telling u guys about the cracky-just-wait-separate marriage of my sis, just because of the queen control-busy body mother-in-law, what a pity that my sis got that old wreck bitch.AJA AJA :P

Despite all these disruptions and distractions, I'm never get affected, yeah a little bit, but that doesn't affect change hugely. I was some kind of person that sometimes really could handle myself really well when it comes to external distracting factors. Nevertheless, I am still fighting with my own is for me to sit down for long time, and tryna revise and study some books as my 4-paper-exam are seriously approaching near me in next january.It scares me to death as C3 and C4 are like solid determinant to get A* in Maths,(well, i got aim to achieve one A*,at least).

I've not been really productive since the very first day i stepped my feet on my homeland. Okay, what i was thinking is that to have someone guard me, and sit next to me, and instruct me with my revisions as well as past year questions that bloody need to be completed.In that way, I would finish doing those stuffs when there's someone that's regulating me.

Ahh i've been mumbling too much about my own.Until i forgot the role of each of us, Muslims, to be a khalifah upon this world.

Maybe i just need to get started tonight, there will be no need to go back to front house, i'll just be better off staying at second house and doing my high-focus revision over there.

Ok, actually i drove to immigration office last morning to make my brand new passport, but sadly, i got rejected(not really though). Actually the office cute guy has asked me to bring my scholarship offer letter so that i would get half price, reduced from RM300 to RM150.Wow, that's like a real saving for the period of 5 years being at foreign land.

Yada-yada i nak pegi umah belakang,sleep tight tight yer. Chill Yo!!!